Where Is That Love?

She stood alone in the park where she met him once while talking to herself over her future and now there is no one in the future to hold her hand like she was secure. The only question she asks herself is, was 7 years of loyalty was not enough? 

She shrugs and tries to bend her thoughts to the blooming flowers who are no more familiar like they use to be when she found them on the doormat on her birthday last year. Has she been strike by a thunder or she hit herself to the wall of terror.

All that is acceptable for her but she thinks of betraying him and leaving him no options but sorrows and difficulties. She can do everything but cant stand his ignorance and tears. But how can she go back after all she had faced, ignoring for better and peace and in the end she is alone sitting on sand making empty hearts and waiting for waves to wash them off.

Simple life with smile, laugh and harmony changed into she saw in the sad movies and she cant believe she is the part of it. She have accepted all of it with arms wide open, things are not changing and she is not returning back. 

She opens her book of heart and look for the answers of her fears. She was misunderstood, misjudged and pushed to cry off the cage. Now she is not going back, now she is not saying sorry, now she is not compromising and now she is not yours anymore.

She stand up and walk towards the road leaving the shore behind, she turned around look into the sun rising, she smiled and said its my new day and new beginning.

But the question remains in her heart “Where is that love?” 

Happiness (poem)

I saw them today, and I dreamt about them at nights

All I can see is, their kids yell and fights

That disgusts me when I realize I am in my warm bed

All they have is a repeating dark fate

 

I have seen them using a tin can to play football

Small pleasures are not that expensive after all

When they smile I find myself the most poor man

I search for happiness even I can buy anything, I can

 

Their sparkling eyes with a pointing nose when I smile at them

They seem to have more in peace than I am

So sorry I want to leave this moment

My warm blanket is calling me, and I am the chosen

 

They fell to the ground and they cried for hours

How mean I am lying on bed of flowers

selfishness is far behind me where I am standing now

If I am there at their place tomorrow will I ask, how?

 

I threw my blanket off my bed

I called them at my room instead

I took out my all my clothes and food

And I realize and I understood

 

They all came to me hugged me and push me to the ground

That is my blanket and I am the happier now

Time Flies (poem)

So many thoughts drifting through my mind

There are a lot of things I still have to find

Thousands and Millions that does not matter

I have to search for love even I am blind

 

No one can complete anyone nor themselves

 Because they have stored heat in their shelves

I want to close the doors for them

But that will put me into shells

 

So much running in my veins more than blood

If you cut my heart, you will find mud

So is it different from your shoes that you wear?

Just open your eyes and you will be with me in a flood

 

Last night or last month that does not matter

you left me, I am not a traitor 

I called you on the wooden stairs crying

Only I got was tears and your letter

 

No one has came since then to hold my hand

my palm is cold as a cold night sand

I wish I could be like you 

But now I have to make a stand

 

I got this

 

No one will love me until I love myself

I will not listen to you any more, I am deaf

I will get my name and my pride back

Am I sober or the Clock just ticked twelve

 

 

My love (poem)

I got up in the morning with a smile

There is no office, desk or files

I am up there watching you from the clouds

Killing my all worries and doubts

 

At last I am in love

These clouds are white like doves

Finally I am alive

I so want to go with you on a long drive

 

Fear, worries and problems are gone

I have been waiting for ages to see this dawn

Why did you call them all in at a banquet 

You completed me in a cold night under a blanket

 

Let me grab your hand and take you to the stars

Fade away all your pain by kissing on your scars

I will give you the love that you still miss

I will show you what heavens yes

This is a feeling of a newly-wed bride to her groom, She feels complete and wants to give back the love he wishes.

Happy New Year (poem)

Lived for twenty five years
Living with all those fears
Whenever I look back at them
I always fall apart in tears

Nothing changed but the digits
All I can see their minds are rigid
They all wanted me to accept that
How can I accept that? after all those deaths

Blood all over the road
There is no food
All I can hear is crying and screams
Because they have killed the groom

How can I be happy with all this
Blood, tears, screams and this mist
I should stand up and pick my pencil
Draw everything that is in my list

Black or white I am going to love them
Fat or slim I am going to love them
I have to change this year
To a real HAPPY YEAR

Sober (poem)

Stories begun to shrink

Tonight I started to drink

Tomorrow I will again be sober

But I will stay a loner

I fought for you when I was on Wheelchair

Now I can see you crawling on the stairs

I knew you would come to see me

I wish I could say ‘we’ not me

Dark clouds vanishing over my head

I wish you besides me instead

Good news for you after all these years

I am going to be sober and live my life without your fears

Anger

Anger is me when I am not right and I want to prove myself and anger is me when I am right and no one believes me and Anger is me when I try and tell people the truth but everyone wears a big black glasses of false hopes and desires.

Anger is the hardest thing to handle if we really do not know the other person in fact if we do not understand ourselves. We have heard our elders, if you want to know the truth hear that person in his anger.

Sometimes we take a note about a person act and we call it act of depression and act of frustration. Time, Money, Status and Face value that is all we can desire off and when we are not getting it we get into depression and frustration. Why? is that only thing we want and we can get angry for? I have many more reasons to get angry rather than this material in this materialistic world.

When I see bloodshed I should get angry. Why not? We should not cry because those are not our relatives. We have to feel their pain in order to make this world a better place to live.

When I see small kids starving with no shelter and nothing to wear but they really have one thing all the time, tears. I should get angry when I see their tears why not? because we are not wearing their shoes? If we just try and fit our toe in their shoes we will realize what is to be there.

Those are just 2 things but there are thousands of things waiting for your response. Let’s show our anger towards wrong and lets give everyone the best place to live in. Anger is always not bad after all.